narrow avenues -or so they seem-.

I wish some people would read this and I wish some people wouldn't read this. I'm so depressed and wish i weren't taking sciences and maths for A-levels because that's not what i'm good at.maybe youre wondering so what are you good at and thats a very good question only i'm not sure i know the full answer. i know i'm not studying much. thats because when i come to study i don't feel like studying anymore if you know what i mean. i think it'll be nice being a doctor only that chemistry is mostly boring and bio is mostly long.and i'm sure i see things in a different way than most scientists and mathematicians because our answers to problems are usually different.

i can argue with you for hours about this problem only that arguments don't change the reality. but what is the reality? is not whats proven by argument? so am i saying that arguments change the perceived reality?and not pure reality?so how will we ever know pure reality because whoever tells us reality will be telling us from their own perspective.

oh sorry, i forgot to establish the problem which i'm trying to solve, because i know theres a problem but am not sure what it is. is it that i'm not satisfied with what i have? or not satisfied by what i'm doing with what i have?